So I haven’t eaten all week. So since my boyfriend dumped me a day before our big happy reunion and after making me think the entire week we were finally back to normal. Finally happy. Most girls eat when depressed I don’t. This isn’t a sad binge. This is a I need to eat before I pass out binge. So I am just refueling for another week of no eating. I am liking not eating. I like feeling empty again. I like eating too. Like right now I don’t feel too bad to eat. For the first time I don’t feel too bad. I just see it as I am just refueling and now that my boyfriend is gone I can eat now and continue to fast all through the weekend until next week. Oh well.
2-3hrs left of my water fast. Then its time for bed. I thought it was gonna be much easier. It was not. I’m starving but soon I’ll be sleeping. Tomorrow I am debating if I should continue. Or if I should juice. Or if I should eat. Lets see.
How am I staying so strong? Because I have a fucking eating disorder!!!! Fuck my life???!!!